Monday, October 29, 2007
Words are sacred
Last Thursday, I wrote a creepy Halloween story from a mapping exercise assigned in my writing class. I promised to post it here on Halloween. I spent several hours working on that story and I shared it with my writers critique group that night. They seemed to like it okay, offering only a few suggestions (which were very good, btw).
Friday, depression hit. Bad. I couldn't write, I couldn't think, I could barely get myself out of bed. A couple of times it crossed my mind that the two events might be related. At first I thought that perhaps the adversary was double-timing me since I'd actually written a story. I am certain that was part of it.
But this morning I was reading Elder Holland's conference talk from May 2007. In it he states, "words are sacred." I believe that with all my heart. As I started to capture ideas from that talk and record them in my journal, I realized how important it is for me to remember the sacredness of the words I use and the profound trust the Lord placed in me when he gave me this talent and desire to write.
The story I wrote last week is dark and creepy. It does not inspire nor uplift. It does not teach that we should fight against the darkness. The message of the story is that at any moment, we can become victims of evil that will destroy us, and we will have no recourse, no resistance, no help, no hope. That is not a message I want to put out into the world.
I have no problem with writing about evil, or about using creepy blood-sucking monsters as metaphors, as long as the message of the story is that those monsters can be fought, resisted and defeated, that there is a power greater than evil, a power that will always be stronger, always win.
As I was writing these thoughts in my journal, I could literally feel the depression lifting away from me and feel peace and enthusiasm replacing it. I have thrown away the paper copies of my story and deleted the computer file. I will not be posting it to my blog on Halloween. I believe I have learned a very precious and valuable lesson through this experience and I am very grateful for it.